Wednesday, November 24, 2004

it is

always something beyond language that awakens one
to a quality in someone else. Shared sensibility.
Pre language. To perceive another as someone
who can teach us something, who can open us up
with greater sensitivity to the inter-relationship of ideas.
This is what Deleuze means when he speaks of singularities.
Singularities coincidentally crashing into some new re-action,
the event of new thoughts unfolding. Creativity. Each new
thought an assemblage of its singularities, of those things
that make it possible. Take away any one of those elements,
like ingredients in a recipe, and that specific thought is no longer
possible. The serendipity of becoming as a function of assemblages
that collectively construct a social tissue. Skin of culture.
Sense of time and place.

The first time I saw him, he was standing on a ladder.
Sleeves rolled up. White shirt, black pants. Adjusting lights.
Months later, a conversation. Blue eyes, soft voice.
He liked children, old people. And everyone liked him.
But time moved too slow; he lived too fast. Played too hard.
Then my other choice as all of it drifted past.
A few years later. A bookstore. Same soft voice.
His "What are you buying?" to my "Marvin Gaye"
to his "Good lyrics for kids. Coffee?"
Stories of his life, my life. Beautiful eyes.
And still I could not tell him how I felt.


6 Comments:

Blogger in vino veritas [in wine, there is truth] said...

[Then my other choice as all of it drifted past] ... intriguing, as it's about choice, and choosing, [and still ...]

11:09 p.m.  
Blogger name of the rose said...

choice...and the fear of finding everything in the eyes of someone else

1:30 a.m.  
Blogger in vino veritas [in wine, there is truth] said...

[the fear of finding everything in the eyes of someone else]

though perhaps not intended to be, there is something rather sad about this statement; something sad and understandable.

3:14 p.m.  
Blogger name of the rose said...

I am curious as to why you would say it is understandable since only someone who has experienced it would find it comprehensible

6:08 p.m.  
Blogger in vino veritas [in wine, there is truth] said...

I'm not certain that it's the same thing, but there can be a fear or regret in seeing in someone aspects of self, a complement to self, but that for one reason or another, you can't act on, for fear, attachment, impracticality of the situation, of your situation, that it's not the moment, it's too early, it's too late, that you may lose something of yourself, in giving yourself ...

8:40 p.m.  
Blogger name of the rose said...

yes, exactly, its in your words

9:30 p.m.  

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